faded?

into the red....
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

just got them pics from the darkelephant...i can't believe i look so faded! LOL!!!

Still, the NY scene is just so hoppin' that i'm aching for more...

next year! I heart NY!!!

(culture) shock

I'll be posting my new pics in a few days (it's so hard to upload pics when you're on the move) --- that, and i'm enjoying just chilling right now.

Had my last day as a tourist in DC earlier, checking out the Capitol, absorbing the lovely arworks in the National Gallery of Art and well, exploring the Botanical Gardens. Had a lovely time riding the Metro, getting "lost" along downtown and having some downtown time with Cha for dinner. Thanks for the great time and fabulous accommodations, girl! Anytime you're in Pinas, lemme know! :-D


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In less than a week, i'll be shifting from cold weather to really hot weather, trading my greens for pesos and well, shifting back to another form of reality altogether. It's weird, all this change.

People think just because i seem to move around so much, i'd be used to it, but i'm not.


Oh well.

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the hi-lo

Waking up to Washington DC sunshine is quite disconcerting. There's a rush of sadness that greeted when me i woke up again.

Last night's abrupt phone call made me second guess myself again. I don't know what to say, really. What do you say to someone you care about after all the drama? As much as i want to say everything, i feel it's useless to even think about it at this point. It's up to you, dammit. Stop pretending like everything's ok when you clearly know it's not. Not anymore anyway.

I want to be able to love without restrictions, without any red tape, nobody telling me it's not time, or we can't at this point because i'm busy. I want to be able to love without having to second guess myself. Loving shouldn't be hard. I'm giving something to you, don't make a big deal out of it. GOD. It's love, dammit, not brain surgery.


Oh well... so much for a good morning :-P

Time to hit the museums.

sunday mornings

Well spent into the wee hours of the early days
we'll discover the secrets behind the smiles
and unlock the mysteries of late
delighfully succumbing to the momentary bliss of exploration
one thinks it is fleeting
but in the brief moment that holds you in
you revel in the sweet intimacy

the end stretch

So i'll be heading back to sunny Cali in a few days and i gotta admit, this whole East Coast trip has given me so much insight on so many things, my mind is blown away by the endless possibilities that has been set in front of me.

Much Kudos to the friends and family who have selflessly shared their time and space with me during my visits! :-)

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Baltimore practically rocks when you got good company, lotsa drinks and a lotta dancing :-P Had my own mini-gals' night with old roomie Lucia at the various hotspots of the Harbor --- made me wish i had longer time in Baltimore/DC :-P The night was filled with sweet company, great music and a whole lotsa "interesting" sightings ;-) Where's my camera when i need it!??!!!

>>> Past pics of the grand place click here

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good music, good food! /jazz at Fells Point / lovin' the single's life! --- i's so odd to be in the pool again..../ "salsa dancing" /wee hours/ MTV2 / cuddling is always so nice / talking and champagne / Guinness Beer! / sweet... / PE??? / brunch with Crepes and a lotta gal talk / driving! / easy like a sunday morning... / complete turnovers are strangely amazing...

Guilty Pleasure

Don't Forget About Us
Mariah Carey

Intro:
(Don't forget about us)
Don't baby, don’t baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
My baby boy...

(Verse I)
Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby

(Bridge I)
Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about

(Chorus)
Late nights, Late nights, playing in the dark and waking up inside my arms
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us
I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

(Verse II)
Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it

(Bridge II)
There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about

(Chorus)

(Rap)
And if she's got your head all messed up now
That's the trickery
She'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be
I bet she can't do like me
She'll never be MC

Baby don't you, don't you forget about us

(Chorus x2)

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go

When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us.

f*ckit

somebody send me back my wallet. :-(

thankful

It is Thanksgiving after all, so amidts the depression and post-drama, i woudl like to list down the lot i am absolutely thankful for:

- the warm accomodation Mel and her fab family is giving me! Thank you for taking in this misplaced FOB while she is aimlessly around in the East Coast

- the absolute grand time and accommodation i received from NY, CHICAGO, D.C. and BALTIMORE!!! Much kudos to Mitzi, Dave, Osbourne, Hazel, Babar, Cha, Tita Nancy and Jason for taking me in while i explored the city grounds.

- the first time i saw snow (yes, cheesy me!) --- the loveliest of falling flurries came down last night and i stood enchanted and giddy as a kid.

- the weather that permits me to look as wacky and let me get away with it :-P

- the NY/ East Coast experience. It's fun, it's lovely, it's something i wanna do AGAIN!!!

- the opportunity to "find myself" and bum. Literally.

- warm socks, leg warmers and gloves. (beanie also a big plus!)

- reunions, semi-reunions and well, long-awaited talks :-)

- the future (what's next?)

snow

I saw my first snow tonight :-) It was the most beautiful sight i ever did see.

Too bad i wasn't with you to see it.

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You never called back. The snow is settling on the grass, covering the night with its wintry blanket.

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detective work

All i need right now is another problem...

Losing my ticket shouldn't be that problem, but it is. Now i wonder how the HELL i'm goin back to the West Coast. Somebody give me back my wallet!Ack!

biting cold

The frost continues to gnaw on her blistering skin. I seem to have lost any emotion because i can't feel anything right now.
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The ride was long and uneventful. She gazed outside the window, attempting to avert her face from prying eyes. These people must wonder why her tears won't stop. She tells the woman who asks, i miss the warmth.

The woman looks away. She sits back and continues to stare out, tears streaking her face.

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In another city he wonders if he really did the right thing. Her sad goodbye echoes his mind. Someday,he thinks, it will happen.

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She thinks, someday...

godverdomme

I sit here and try to put into words how i feel about you.

Yes, amazingly, i come up with nothing. Or perhaps everything, and i'm just too chicken to put it all in writing.

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Last night you let me hold you close and i slept a dreamless peaceful sleep.

I love you and you don't have to say anything about it.


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It's hard to say something to you without sounding stupid. I am afraid of you and your demeanor. Perhaps because we both changed (though i'm not sure if it's for the better or worse).

the "bean" that ate Chicago

the "blob"
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

Outdoor sculpture entitled "bean" (as in Jelly bean) looms over us like the blob. :-) Pretty shiny for a bean, if you ask me :-P

Chicago is great during the spring,i'm sure. The lovely weather permitted us to dally-about, rendering us defenseless to its charms.

Still, it ain't NY, but who am i to complain? It's the midwest after all, and life is well, different here.

Bound

Perhaps i am just too comfortable in dwelling in what has happened that i feel no need to let go. Perhaps the past binds me and i can't get myself out of it.

Ah fuck.

Today i search through Art Institute of Chicago's numerous halls as if searching for my answer amidst the paintings. Georges Seaurat's masterpiece, Sunday afternoon on the island of Le Grand Jatte, looms over me, giving nothing but its abstract beauty.

I wonder if io would have another episode of "Starry Night".

I feel nothing and everything.

What is it about the big 2-5 that makes you want to analyze everything that has happened, is happening and will be happening in your life? What is it about this magical age that makes you question every decision you have made, doubt every confidence that you have and simply make you fear of the inevitability of life?

Argh.

Don't mind me. This too, shall pass....

smilin despite the cold

smilin despite the cold
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

this is the token pic of me and jason hangin' out (a de ja vu from the washiongtoon pics, dontcha think?)--- and yes, it's freezing, People!

cold

what's worse than a cold bored gal?

a cold bored gal with an itch to scratch.

I don't mean it like THAT (pervs!) --- i mean, i'm bored and i wanna do something about my current situation, but due to the damn cold i can't do anything. Yes, i feel like the FOB islander that i am, freezing my ass off while trying to figure out where the hell can i get some form of heat in this somewhat frigid area of the US.


For now my sanctuary is this quaint cafe nearby the area which houses a warm atmnosphere (yey!) and wireless internet(whoo-hooo!) for the price of 3$ (pay for coffee and muffin,m and you're set). Ahh... nice to be warm inside and out.


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I miss the weather in California. But i still miss NY...

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the coldness

i am cold. literally and figuratively.

Somehow this weird phenom has settled in and i am not really sure how to address it.

Tama ba? Naiisip kominsan baka hormonal changes lang to ( like that uber-emotional response to Van Gogh's Starry Night) or maybe it's just the darn weather. I really haven't been able to adjust to the weather --- i feel like i'm forever stuck in this freezer called Chicago. Somebody heat me up... uh, that didn't sound right. My bad. LOL

Chicago impressions

Nobody told me it was gonna be COLD in Chicago.

It's pretty, pristine and yes, COLD. It snowed last night, which delayed my flight into O'Hare by two hours. Argh. Thank God Jason has his car already...otherwise i'll be trudging down through snow and commuting to Godknowswhere...

So here i am, typing away on Jason's lovely MAC (ooh, i want one too!) while trying to "make most" of my morning. I've been trying to download a MAC version of Photoshop so i can get going with a project (anybody? help??? please!???) while figuring out what to wear (after all, i came here with "light winter clothes" --- doesn't necessarily tranlate to the appropriate ones :-P) before i step out.

Ahhh.

This whole East coast/ midwest trip is somewhat tiring and stressful, i gotta admit. I'm not saying i'm not loving every inch of it, but i do wish that the emotional aspect of this trip can be kept to a minimum. I am going nuts trying to figur emyself out after all these encounters and wondering if i'm losing my mind in the process...

Still, there is hope.

While i try not to reminisce too much of the past, i try to figure out what to do with my "future".

For now i'll just try to figure the warmest yet most stylish clothes i have --- before i freeze to death.

the city that is NY

it's odd to think that NY can change people, but having been here for about a week now, i can honestly say that it can. And it does. The city can literally eat you up alive, if you let it... this is not to dissuade me from thinking that NY is THE place be in -- i am somewhat bereft that i will be missing out on some good partyng and some of the fabulous sights and sounds that comprise this amazingly diverse, fantastic place....the people, the subways, the haunts, theparties like such fun, and i'd hate to be getting out just when the season's just starting.

Oh well. Take the bad with the good, as they say. In this case, i will. :-P

Ahh, ce'st la vie.

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I still love NY.

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serendipity?

Siguro nga, it had to be.

Isipin ko man na hindi pwede, o kaya tanungin ko man sairili ko kung bakit nangyari ang nangyari, mukhang ngayon, hindi mangyayari ang pagkakataon na ito muli. O di ba, ang surreal.... LOL

Masaya nako at nakapagusap muli tayo. Ang tadhana naman o, may pagkapilyo talaga minsan... Ngayon, di ko na inaalala ang kahapon o bukas. Sa ngayon, di ko na muna iisipin ito. Sa mga pagkakataong ito, masaya na muna ako na makapiling ka at makausap ka muli na walang takot, walang sama ng loob, at walang katanungan kundi, san tayo gigimik? :-P

Siguro nga, It just had to be.... you.

hazel and lette!

lette_n_hazel
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

had a fab dinner with Hazel by Times Square last night! :-) It's so great to see her again... yummy food (chinese), great company in one of the greatest cities in the world, what mor ecan a gal ask for? :-)

Best Friends till the End

Best Friends till the End
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

(this is beginning to sound like a BFF series!) Got this in the mail recently from Kittee gurl --- thanks a bunch, hon! mwah! I'm missing you! :-) Awww, and she has our pics up too! :-)

Girlfriends

BFF (Best Friends Forever)
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

in times of happiness
and sorrows and grief
they give you some hope
and a a little bit of relief
you can count each one
to give you some love
be it a smile
some words or a hug
they comfort you with cheer
that's forever abound
or just be plain happy
with a margarita round!
With galpals like these
who needs to frown?
They keep you up and never down
Fabulous friends
despite all the strife
Are friends till the end
and treasures for life

at Edgar Allan Poe's grave

at Edgar Allan Poe's grave
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

AAAhhhh, Baltimore. Land of crabcakes, Sleepless in Seattle and yes, Edgar Allan Poe. :-) Here's to you, o great one

birthday thanks

thank_you_card
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

kudos to the gang for giving a wonderful party! :-D mwah mwah mwah! *hugs*